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Mornings-after for me usually vary from 'that was nice, have a good day' to 'oh shit, you really looked better in the dark when I was drunk'.
After this mission, I guess I have to make a new category. Won't tell Ryouma, though. He's cocky enough as it is.
But it can't happen again. Things to do, people to kill. Might get
attached, and then where would I be? He's not the type to stick with one partner. I'm not naive enough to hope otherwise.
It's not like I ever had a claim on him.
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It was nice, talking with someone who'd served on the border. Good memories, bad memories. More bad than good. But...didn't feel
so lonely, I guess.
Heh. Was also pretty awesome when we completely destroyed Masahiko's base. And Masahiko. We should spar sometime, Ryouma. How good are you at kenjutsu?
I should visit Makoto sometime soon. Nori says some civilian girl he goes to Hanamiya with is sniffing around him (since when has my little brother started talking to girls? That's like a dog walking on its hind legs or a flying pig or something equally impossible). Maybe Nori can drop by when Makoto's home alone, ask him to meet me at a park. We could get teriyaki or something.
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Went to the specialist today. Same old, same old: 'lose control and your chakra will burn you up like charcoal at the yearly barbeque.'
No improvements, but nothing's
worse.
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and it feels like I'm drowning. Chakra in my lungs and airways. This huge weight in my chest where I was cut open.
It hurts.
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worried
lonely
confused
sleepy